Monday, October 30, 2006

first day of work .

ha. was kinda late . traffic jam . reached work at about 8.55am . 10 minutes late . not too bad lah.

first went in . met 2 girls . around my age while nigel was having meeting . their meeting got techno music and it was blasting ? so weird lah . what kind of meeting is this . haha . you must be thinking what kind of company is this . haha

thats what i was thinking at first . and guess what we do . you know those irritating people who go to you and ask you to buy their product then say you buy this then you get this free . yea. im going to be one of those irritating people

but it is damn boring . i was talking on the phone half the while cause it was just a training day for me . tomorrow will be thousand time worse ! hope to sell my products fast so i can rest rest (:

so guess where we went to sell the products ? JURONG ! so bloody far . it was almost near malaysia . you know where all those industries are , there . omg . it was so ulu .

aim - meet 250 people !

siao lah . social until cannot social sia . haha

then after selling products took bus to jurong point then took mrt to outram park then walk to office . so far ! tsk ! legs are aching man ! so had another interview . passed it (: yay . but i dont like the job . my legs are aching ! grr !

nvm , after one month im gonna quit and enjoy life ! wooohoooo . this month shall suffer during weekdays and party during weekends (: soo . after work took 174 to outram park mrt than to tanah merah then 14 home . long eh ? imagine how tired i am now . i didnt even get to sit in the mrt . how pathetic is that ! urgh !

im exhausted right now . need rest as i sleept for 3 hours cause of nicole soon and dwayne ! tsk .talk so much ! tsk tsk tsk . shall sleep at 1 or 2 today (: tomorrow is going to be another long day . boohoo .

im starting to hate work on the first day ! argh. another month to suffer . nvm . i shall countdown . i shall exclude weekends (:

23 days more (: not too bad . will pass fast lah . haha . shall take few days off . dont want to work so much . but need MC . okay . long day tomorrow . people sms me during work . it is super boring there !

thats all for today

i miss having you around , my boy

LOVES

the memories have shattered 12:01 AM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

went shopping today !

ohno . i spend $75 on a blouse ! ohmy . my heart break ! but its nice lah . formal formal . shall not wear it so soon . save it till christmas (: shall wear it to karina's house i hope (: okay . so came home .

dad's friend came over . after that ordered pizza for dinner . full full (: yum yum . nothing much . watched johnny english . funny movie .

oh shit . i need shoes ! i need palms ! ohno . all i have are slippers ! and i cant wear them to work tomorrow . shit lah . anyone can lend ? =D . PLEASE ?

oh nvm . boss just smsed me . can wear formal slippers . hoho . dont need lend le . woohoo .. weeeeeee.

sian . tmr work is going to be boring . tsk . going to work alone . oh well . independant eh ? haha i wish . so boring lah . then lunch eat myself .so loner la . grr.

okayy . soo tmr is chinese o lvl . mm . GOOD LUCK JOSHUA (:

okay . damn bored now . anyone reading this . talk to me in msn and you better tag (:

MAHJONG ON FRIDAY (: YAY ! CANT WAIT .

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 10:17 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

okay . this is going to be a sad post .

my maid left today =( . family and I went to send her off . had coffee and starbucks before she left . oh i miss her so =(

when she said bye to my mum and dad she was already sad . the moment she hugged me she cried . =( i will miss her .

everytime she would remember what clothes i was wearing when she first saw me . it was a green kangaroo tshirt and yellow pants and she would remember i tied two ponytails =) .

i miss how we used to sleep in the television room every saturdays and we would talk whole night .

i miss how we played water at the back . haha .

i miss how you would nag if i didnt eat

i miss how we used to talk for hours

i miss all the songs you used to create and sing to me . they were GREAT :D

i miss the times when we would go to 7/11 and buy food ((:

i miss the times when we would go to bedok for shopping

i miss how you would show me all the clothes you bought .

i miss how you could not decide on what to buy .

i miss how you would do retarded stuff and laugh .

i miss how you say you're fine when its obvious you just cried

i miss how sotong you are

i miss when you tickle me

lastly i miss having you around

she just smsed me . she go on the plane not long ago . she should be reaching in a few hours from now .

she is gonna get married in feb or jan . i hope i could go there . but it wouldnt be holidays . skip sch i hope ?

boy , i give up .
2 years , i think its enough .
i know , you know , even if there's love , there wouldn't be any us .
everyday i pray , hoping you'd be mine again .
but i guess she's yours now .
god does everything for a reason .

i guess god wants you to be happy .
you're happier with her .

without you there's nothing
i'm alive , but where's life without you

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 4:04 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

played mahjong yesterday night till today morning at charm's (:

after a long night of mahjong , i'm still craving for another game !
charm ? another night ? haha .

ha. went home at noon . didnt go to tm with everyone else . mum wanted to go out as i promised her we would go for the sale together . so yea . went home . got dressed but waited for my brother to come home from school . went there bought a shirt . nice (:

mum picked dad up from office then went for lunch . dropped bros home then headed to bedok for blow dry . i'm going to highlight my hair soon . maybe on sunday . i'm not sure . i think i've enough money . i hope i do .

i think i'm going to highlight a silvery greenish greyish blondish colour . imagine it . nice eh ?

so went home slept awhile . didn't get to sleep much the night before . slept for an hour then got dressed and headed to fort canning park for the hari raya function .

it was fun . some coolio guy danced. he was so cute . oh my . he so COOLIO (: . haha. so cute ! he is about 10 ? maybe slighty older or younger . he wore some coolio clothes thats why i named him coolio .

some other guy and his sister danced to that same song . it was an impromto thing . but they danced really well .

home at about 12 plus . onlined awhile . then went to sleep as i was about to go into my deep sleep , nicole called . wanted to borrow some money . so she and dwain cabbed down to my house then passed her the money and went to sleep (:

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 3:44 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

went to sch today . feels like havent gone to sch for a long time

got back report book .

yumita said i could have gone 3EA .

my science is my lowest marks ? haha so weird lah .

i think 3EB is better . but i dont like history . im not good at memorising . i guess i'll have to cope . lit isnt too bad i think . but i hate reading . haha . i guess i have to work extra hard next year .

mm . so im sort of satisfied with my results . wasnt too bad . but im the only one in 2EC taking amaths next year . everyone else is taking science . manfen says only about 5 people are going to take amaths . tsk ! dont curse lah . i want more !

tmr we get to know who are in our class next year . hope nice nice people . but there are many from 2EC going to 3EB . me mita and manfen are in the same class (:

ha . life's just missing something =(

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admitSometimes
I just wanna hide'
Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 9:34 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

okay . this year has been the worst .

my maid's leaving on sat =( . she cried today which made me tear soon =( . she was like ' you must take care okay . study hard. im sorry for all the mistakes i've done . dont make your parents angry .' omg . just damn sad . i'm going to miss her damn lot .

i will miss the way she wakes me up continuosly in the morning whereas my new maid just shouts my name and walks off .

i will miss the way she pronouces charmain's name (: . so cute !

i will miss going to the shops with her

i will miss her cooking !!

but oh well .she going to get married . wish her all the best (:

some people didnt believe he was with her right ? now im sure . =( . but oh well . he is happy . i should be happy too right ?but somehow i find it so hard to do so . yea . i know i love you but dont think these three words matter anymore . you have someone else for you to say it too . take good care of her . please dont hurt her .

dont think we are talking anymore . dont think you would read this either. i just hope you would . mm . take care . if only i could turn back time . oh well . 26 november is coming. i'll forget you at least i hope too .

you're one lucky girl (:

okay . so today went to grandma house in the morning for breakfast . then went home . got ready in the afternoon and went to a few of mum's friends houses . after that came home . talked . slpt . woke up not long ago . havent eaten dinner . going to eat soon though . but dont really have the mood

having pms cramp now . it really hurts=(

im going to stop here now . i dont feel like posting . oh yea. and everyone im fine , really . i dont think anyone would understand . how much pain =(

why today ? i thought today would be a better day .

maybe tomorrow then . report book tmr . i know all my results . just want to see my remarks .

okay . oh well . life really sucks .

i wish i were you ;

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 9:34 PM

soo . didnt go sch today .

after mosque went to nicky's house then went to watch world trade centre . haha . not that bad movie . just that i hate ****** **** . haha . his face pisses me off . haha . his country is in danger and he goes to another country. what an asshole (:

mm . after that went home . slpt on the bus home . missed my stop =( . typical story eh ? haha . but luckily it was only one stop . so walked from temasek sec home . i was already so tired . imagining walking more . haha look like a walking zombie . haha

so came home . talked with mum . decided what clothes to wear on each functions . mm . took a nap as i could slp last night . thinking about some stuff . i slpt at 3 last night and woke up at 4 plus . so yea . kinda long day .

soo . i thought about somethings . i think i will just give up . he is happy with his life now . i guess its time i let go . all the things he said to me were just sweet nothings . ha . you said you loved me . if only it was true . even if it was then you wouldnt be with her would you ?

nvm . i have my friends and family (: though is not the same having to lose a best friend =( i miss you patrick =( i want my sotong friend back !

tmr will be a better day , will it ?

lets live life like there's no tomorrow (:

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 12:55 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

tsk . im annoyed !
i fasted the whole day till 5 or 6 and i found out i got my pms !tsk this sucks lah .im so irritated .i wanted to be holy today and pray lah !and i had to get it !tsk . god just doesnt want me to pray ! =((

haha . but still i went to the mosque but had to sit at the corner . since my cousin forced me to go . she also had her pms. so at least i had company . i was hungry . coz i sort of fasted the whole day so we went to 7/11 to buy some food while everyone was praying . haha =X

nth much happened .

not going to sch tmr . going to mosque in the morning then going to watch movie with nicky . haha . going to her house after that i guess . (:

going a dinner after that too ! wee . maybe get hari raya money (: my cousin in america is so poorthing . she only gets money from her mum . so sad lah .

oh well . guess what . i cleaned my room today ! wee . so clean !

now i welcome people to comeover . not like i dont before . but now more welcomed (:
this doesnt make sense . haha . okay .

shall end here . maybe post tmr (:

take good care of her okay?
you know im still here for you
if you wanna come back one day
you're welcomed with opened arms my love

amelia . you're one lucky girl . take care of him too . dont hurt him please .

LOVES;

the memories have shattered 12:21 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

soo . its saturday and im not going out =( .suppose to go out with karina . but she had to go out with her friends . soo . its okay .maybe going to help my papa make the cake menu . haha. still thinking how to design it . cause most of my skins are mostly gory .

dad's been real busy making cakes . he has to make 25 cakes a day . woo . good business eh ? haha . anyone want to order more ? i dont mind . i dont think he does either . when i make the list then you see the price range . it isnt that ex lah . afordable

mm . those who want to order dont be like charmain! say want to order in the end never . tsk tsk . bad customer . hehe . no lah . joking (: but order soon okay ? i have brownies at home . come over soon . loves .

lastly . mm . talked to a friend yesterday . sort of consoled me . dont think i should reveal her name . so yea. mm . so i guess . i owe someone an apology

mm . manfen : sry yea. ytd i guess maybe i got alot on my mind . mm . even if i wanted to go with you i wouldnt be able too . i have hari raya . i need to go visiting too . so my week will be packed . hope you understand . you can go with seowling then . (: . hope you grandpa gets well soon . loves ;

okay . i guess im going to design the menu . shall post the pic up when its done .

i'm down on my knees ,
begging you to come back ;
i'm lost without you my love

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 2:07 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

weeee ! im happy !

so we sort of know our overall results and position ((:

and i got A2 for maths yeah ! im happy !

lets see .

english : b4 . mid year pulled my marks up ((:
maths : A2!!! weee . im super happy !
science :c5 marks pulled up too !
mt : 59 ! one bloody mark to a B ! tsk ! go and die lah
dnt :69 ! one blooodyyy freaking mark to an A2 lah ! wah lao .
homeecon : A2
history:c5 i think .
geography : b4 . not bad lah
literature : b4 =( my mid year pulled my marks down ! boo !
art :b4 , heck this sub (:

soo my overall percentage 63.1% (:
got 5th position in class ! yay !

i dont like that hua ! she is worse than eric halim ! tsk tsk !
she got 75% for her overall ! i simply feel like killing her ! tsk

so after sch i went to parkway with yumita (: didnt do much . ate (: i didnt fast cause had fever , cough , flu .. aiya . im just sick =( . dont ask me to take medicine , haha . i wont listen to you . hoho .

mmm

ANYONE UP FOR MAHJONG TONIGHT ?!

VENUE : CHARMAIN LIM HOUSE . if you dont know her . than too bad . we are anti social ppl!

i abit fussy in choosing ppl . so you must pass the interview . haha sound like you applying for job . mm . that reminds me . work is starting soon ! weee .

let see , few msgs to some people !

KARINA WENDY AUDREY VENNARD : PLEASE CHEER UP ((: i know how you feel . but thats life . we dont always get what we want . but always there is still hope yea. you dont do stupid stuff . take care my friend , love

MANFEN : hope your grandpa gets well soon . i will pray for you ((:

CHARMAIN LIM : hope you promote next year . will pray for you too ((:

NICOLE SOON : your blog is done . get the code from me . and when are the dates we are going i need to imform sandra .

okay . thats all i guess . mahjong people . interested please call my hp . dont know my hp than instant msg me in msn . dont know my msn , means i dont know you well . ha . but give it a shot . go do smth to find out my number . haha . cause abit weird to reveal my number here ..

so this is how its going to end

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 9:34 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

okay . so i got back all my results today =(
really disappointed . didnt meet many of my targeted grades
lets have a comparison , see if i met any of my target marks

target for EOY
english : B4
maths : A1
science : B4
mother tongue : C5 or B4 (impossible)
geography : B3
history :B3
homeecon :A2
dnt :B3
art : b4
literature : B4

achieved results for EOY
english :c5(overall might make it b4)
maths:b3(might pull up to a2 or lucky a1)
science:c6(ha fat hope)
mother tongue:c5 i think ? or just pass not sure
geo:b4(hope overall will pull my marks up)
history:c5 (most to most get b4 )
homeecon :a2
dnt:a2
art :b4
lit:b3

the underlined ones are the ones which im satisfied with

ha . look ! my results sucks !arghh . only met 5 of my targets . urghh . i really expected an A for maths . but the paper was oh so difficult !ha ! and so many careless mistakes ! arghh ! i hope i still can take A maths .

after sch went to some place to find job . haha we took so many buses today lah . haha . oh yea . and i got the job . so thats good . i start on the 30th october . i should be working for 1 month . lets see . but the working hours are quiet long . 8.45 - 5 or 6 .. but the pay isnt that bad . $1300 per month .wee . that shall be enough for shopping in australia (:

tmr sch again . boring . i rather stay at home . but oh well i dont have a choice . hope it will be better than today . ha . i feel like going shopping ! can wait till i get my pay after i work my ass off !

okay . shall end here .

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 9:51 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

today mm . SPECIAL DAY for 2 of my dearest . haha .

firstly . FARHAN . haha . my bro lah . weee . happy birthday . i will get you your present soon lah . stop asking me . haha . and i know your sad we aint going out for dinner . i will persuade daddy later ok ?

secondly . NICOLE SOON ((: my dear friend . HAPPY BIRTHDAY . must take care hor .hope the australia trip is still on .. hope to see you soon . LOVE LOVE .

mm . okay . soo . im at home . kinda bored . later going to cut cake for my bro i think . he is kinda hinting me to go out to get him a present . tmr then i get la k . im lazy to go out now . haha .
shall end here . maybe post tmr . wait

YUMITA : are we going tmr ? haha . im lazy to call you . haha .

okay . bye bye .

i guess i never really moved on .
take good care of her ,
i love you

LOVES;

the memories have shattered 4:25 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

okay . im posting for some people. haha .

today did not sleep whole night. that means i was studying science from 12 till 6am . haha . i stayed awake with the help of coffee of course and some people online who entertained me , esp manfen ~~(be honoured)~~

the time passed to fast . before i knew it . i was already off to school . hmm . was really tired . as the last time i slept was on tuesday night ? and that was only for 3 hours . haha . madness eh ? soo . we had science paper . i dreaded for this paper as mr yew said it would be really hard but it wasnt that difficult after all eh ? haha . i kept forcing myself to open my eyes during the exam . and yes i didnt fall asleep . haha . not like manfen . haha . the OTAS paper tore cause she drooled . haha .

oh yea. before the paper . during morning assembly . manfen showed me her cow for the carbon cycle . haha . it looks like a ladybird cow ! yes with pokkadots !

soo . after science paper . had art paper . i didnt draw it as good as my prep . i was too tired and didnt have the mood i guess . hope i will still pass yea ? haha

after art we checked our homeecon marks (: . i got 36/50 . not bad A2 . mm . hope my practical can pull my marks up to make it an A1 . mm . after that took bus home with yumita and daryl .

YUMITA ! cheer up yeah. dont cry . smile smile . everything will be fine soon . dont worry have faith . love love . looking forward to going to johor with you on monday (:

soo . went home guess whats the first thing i did ?

haha . on aircon and SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP ! ZZZZzzzz . shiok . but i was awaken by my bro friend and karina's call . haha .

but still i had sleep . i miss my sleep . im going to sleeep later too . weee . sleeeeeeep ((:

but first i need to study my maths .

god . i need an A1 . please please !

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 10:44 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

im not suppose to be blogging . but i just can't leave my blog so deserted . haha . next time no one will visit . haha . and just feel like saying everything out (:

today had history and homeecon paper . went well . should be able to get a B or maybe if I'm lucky an A perhaps .

went to eat at KFC with manfen and yumita . Long time we three haven't gone out together huh . Had a great time laughing at many people . After eating me and yumita went home together . We were really stuffed , so we decided to walk more to digest our food . We walked around the HDB blocks there then came back to the bus stop . We looked like retards ok . haha .

Took bus 14 home . haha . The bus driver was retarded . He went round and round . haha . he went through parkway instead of katong then went back to katong then parkway . then the bus exited at KCP there . those who dont know 14 route . 14 ISNT EVEN SUPPOSE TO PASS PARKWAY . HAHA .

me and yumita could have reached home 30 minutes earlier . haha . but thanks so the SMART driver . haha . went home slpt from 3.30 till 5 plus (seowling called) . haha . was late . haha . she already reached when i just woke up . haha . chiong chiong . bathed changed and met them at MP library .

studied quiet little . but talked alot . went to parkway to eat . saw charm (((: and others . haha . others please dont scold me for not mentioning your name . too many people lah (: mm . ate rojak . yum yum .

walked abit . oh yea . singapore haze is getting worse day by day and the air has a certain smell . smelly smelly .

took bus home with yumita .

nothing's the same anymore .
i always thought it would be me & you
but all this was just a dream , a dream i long for

why does everything hurt oh so much ;
boy, tell me why you did this to me

LOVES ;

the memories have shattered 11:46 PM

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